Silently Chaotic

How long has it been since I saw chaos not only exist on the streets but in my mind? Yes, I did it again. I made it chaotic. However this time it's not as loud as the others.

This chaos silently drawing me closer to madness. Silently eating my insides. Dragging me to hell with those lies I tell. Who are u to put the blame on me? Does anybody here knows whats gonna happen? I was so sure about what I have inside but this ordeal just popped-up out of nowhere. A sudden burst of sadness and agony. Oh well, we're the captain of our own ship and it will sail to whatever course you wanted to take. So I say, this is my battle ground. Silently battling with my logic and emotions.

The next time I see you, I'll put a good face and you will never know that you were deceived and just let me go.

-rcc